There comes a time in every woman’s life when she don’t feel beautiful anymore. I am going Through that right now.
Every morning I wake up and go straight to the washroom just ignoring the huge mirror nearby as if it is a toxic person. I spend more time finding flaws on my face in front of the washbasin mirror than washing my face. I take bath in less than 5minutes as there is no scrubbing dead skin off the whole body with loofa and no conditioning of hair, it’s just rubbing the damn soap all over my body and then letting the foam get off my body by running water over it. And then approximately half an hour every morning in front of the bedroom mirror doing and re doing make up. Applying kajal, finding it a bit less so applying another stroke, finding it a bit more so rubbing the whole thing off with tissue, applying the exact same as the first time. And the same occurs with moisturising cream, lip gloss and foundation sometimes. And after all these the reason for what I leave the room is that I am getting late and the fact is I am unhappy after spending hours craving to find a smile on my own face.
On the way to college or at college if anyone look at me for more than 5seconds I make myself believe that I have over done it, so I rush to the washroom, wash my face with water remove all what I had applied on my face and dry it with the handkerchief. And yeah… Again I didn’t get that smile on my face.
My soul say that “I am beautiful” to me everyday but I am craving for my eyes to speak the same.
Getting back from college tired, I don’t have the courage to go and wash my face as there is a mirror at the washbasin.
And sending a random selfie to someone makes me feel more bad because finally unintentionally I get to see that not so beautiful face.
I spend hours staring at my childhood and teenage pictures and admiring what I looked like then.
And finally I retire myself to bed still craving to see the beautiful me.
But you know what it’s just a phase and it will pass.
You are beautiful, you are special, you are amazing, you are intelligent, you are creative….
You are a woman and you are the creater, the supreme power is in your body.
Keep smiling😊 you never know who will get inspired by you.
Say this to you everytime you feel low or less you.
“I am beautiful, I am special, I am amazing, I am intelligent, I am creative…. I am a WOMAN.”